Just wanted to say a big thank you to you Robinbond for your concern; it's nice to know that someone cares enough to take a moment to remind me that it will get better and that life moves on because when you feel so bad, you can only say it to yourself so many times.

It's been two days since I found out the truth and I truly feel horrible...I'm in grad school but I can't even do any of my homework, I'm not hungry and haven't been sleeping on a regular schedule...I just can't seem to stop feeling like I'm worthless and when I convince myself that I am worthy and feel better, two hours later, my mind slips and I think about him again (like I've been doing for the past year and a half).

Please someone tell me that it gets better because I don't feel like it ever will, especially since I am around this person regularly..I want to hate him so much but I can't...

You can't help but think, "Maybe if I did this differently..." and "Why when he was available did he not look at me?" I just feel like my heart's been stepped on and then in it's dismembered state, flung out a window to land in a lake of chicken grease.... This is the worst feeling ever because of all the times this has happened to me, this is the first where I actually had the guts to show I care.That's the self fulfilling prophecy for you, which means that the moral of the story is if you want it, go for it! don't ever hesitate!

I'm really sorry about your breakup kahlan and the fact that your friends aren't there for you. Just want to let you know that I too understand how your feeling; I'm 27 and have never been in an actual relationship with a guy but it is what it is.

I find that what has been helpful is to focus on loving me and taking care of me first and foremost. You have to give value to yourself; you probably feel like it's all your fault, but please don't think that. If the other person can't see what a valuable and wonderful person you are, then that's their problem.

One day soon someone will come into your life who will love you for you the way you deserve to be cared about, as we all do. It's also just accepting things as they are. So even though you are single right now, that's not so bad when you think about it. Now you have time to do what you want without having to compromise with anyone else. Therefore, you'll have the time you need to take care of yourself, until the next person in your life comes along.

Life moves on and pretty soon you'll see that, so chin up dear, it'll get better :)

I'd say it hurts for about 2-3 days or so. I agree that taking something like ibuprofin or tylenol might be better than vicodin, since those things are super strong. My mom got sick on them one time after she had knee surgery.

Another thing that really helped me when I got my root canal was to put a bag of really hot water over the pain site (so right on your jaw or cheek, depending on where you got the root canal).  It works wonders!! Also, try not to move your head too much; sitting still helped me alot.

Get well soon Hanson! I'm sorry to hear you are all sick ):

YES HE DOES!! I was AMAZED by his performance of "Love Song" at HOB in Boston last Sunday, purely amazed. His guitar solos were awesome and I was singing along at the top of my lungs when he played "Hand in Hand" lol Truly a talented singer and performer and his voice live is beautiful! Love all three of the guys but I have to give Ike some mad props because he really tore it up in Boston and as always:)

Whoo-hoo!!! TTA here we come baby!

"The less you speak, the more you will hear." -Alexander Solshenitsen

Sure, that would be awesome! I'm not going to any of the other shows though, just to Boston. I'll PM you and we can discuss the details :)

Thank you for your kind condolences and for replying to me with your suggestions. I have been keeping in touch with my family throughout all of this, but it has been lonely on my own in my apartment. I'm still "transitioning" into my grad school even after a year and it has been excruciating for me to connect with people.

But, I am working on it with my therapist and am slowly learning to open up to other people more. It's times like these though that I wish I had really solid friends to support me and it just made me feel lonelier yesterday. I feel a little better today but it still kind of hits me at times that my grandma isn't coming back and that I'll never get to see her again.

I feel so alone right now, it's terrible. I'm trying so hard to just have a positive perspective about it, but I'm just so sick of being alone and ignored and not being able to talk to people. To top it off, my grandmother just passed away today and I don't know how to feel and what to do about it, I wish I was back home with my family in part but on the other hand, I don't want to be with them because I have lived with them until I was 26 years old and I really wanted to experience life on my own but it has been such a lonely path.

Any ideas of what any of you do to get through the pain of feeling alone (especially when you have a death in your family or something and you feel like you don't have any friends to fall back on for support)?

You know what? I'm just not going to stress myself out over anyone anymore; if it comes up in front of me that he created this magazine without even the decency to ask me to help out, then that's for him to feel awkward over. I'm just going to worry about myself and I bet that with time, I will find plenty of opportunities to get involved and grow from this program.

I am over it; done...it's funny because all along the person who had the answer for this was me

Okay, so the main reason why I applied to grad school and put up with all the crap of relocating was to establish connections in the writing world. Well it has been exactly one year since I've been in my MFA program and all I've had is people doing so many shady things to me.

But this one tops them all: okay, so I don't know if anyone recalls how I posted on here a while ago about this guy in my program that I was attracted to and basically everyone told me to try to get to know him better because he was more of an acquaintence.

Anyway, he has done quite a few weird things to me which has just made me put on the breaks and reexamine how I feel about him and I came to the conclusion this summer that I want  him only as a friend. So we are FB "friends" and all and during the summer, I went to a dinner party with him there that we both were invited to and it went fine and then he invited me and other people to this improv play and I was one of a few people who went.

So that went alright even though he hid from me and didn't say goodbye. The kicker is that another "friend" of mine in the program told me a couple of weeks ago that he started this literary magazine and invited her to meetings as well as other people that I know. So I never got an invite and just let it go, thinking he'd just forgotten or something. But then I went to the play thing and I've been bumping into him and we even had a chat on the train ride home and he didn't mention a word about the lit magazine.

So then I'm noticing him promoting it all over FB and everything and I still don't have an invite. To top it off, we have a class together again this semester and I just wonder how to confront him about it because I feel it is super rude that we have been supposedly interacting as program buddies (he even introduced me to some of his friends at the play as me being someone in his academic program at school, not even as a friend) and then he asks everyone else but me to help with the magazine.

I am so angry but I dont' want to cause any awkwardness cause I'm the type that is more considerate about others than about myself. Any advice on how to approach this? Please help because I am at the end of my rope trying to connect with people at this stupid school!!

Thanks for the tip! This will be my very first HOB show in Boston and I am pretty short, so that helps!

What?! Oh it's on, Underneathers! lol j/k Actually, it really wouldn't be too much of a tragedy if any of the other two albums won now that I think about it since I wouldn't mind hearing "Get up and Go" "Hey", or even "Lucy" live, but it's fun to mock fight about it lol

But on the other hand, hearing "Save me" live would be pretty epic :)

I'm going to the Boston show too! And I also would love for them to play TTA, which is one of or if not my favorite Hanson album. Let's keep votin'! :)

Thank you for the insight everybody; as tough as it is, I'm going to have to say that this one isn't worth my time too. I still feel really crappy but I'm not going to give up hope that one day I'll meet a genuine man who respects me and loves me for who I am :)

I guess my biggest concern now is that I feel like I can't trust anybody which I think is going to put a hamper on the enthusiasm I've had this summer for meeting people, which again will leave me at square one, feeling alone.

In the meantime, I need a good Hanson song to lift my spirits, and I think it's going to have to be "Been there before" which I put on my ipod last night for this specific reason :)

Thank you Jlove1984, that is really what I am hoping for. But at the same time I feel that if there really was a strong connection the way I felt there was, then wouldn't he have already contacted me by now? I admit that I've been reading these cheesy dating advice articles online (again since I don't have anyone else to talk to about it) and about 90% of them say that if you don't hear back from someone you met within 3-4 days, then forget about them and move on.